Motherhood Round 2

First I will say, there is nothing better than being mommy. I know that I am a great mother, not to toot my own horn, but I love my children. With that said...there is definitely no handbook for parenthood, especially not round 2 for that matter. I have a mound of mixed emotions as a result of changing hormones, sleepless nights, financial woes, and general adjusting. I love looking at my babies, admiring all of the beautiful quirks about them, but I am also exhausted from the difference this baby brings. I cant blame her because I was highly stressed out this pregnancy. Needless to say...she is high strung, needs momma all the time, and sucks me bone dry. As natural a woman as I am, I have dreadfully considered THE PACIFIER!!! UGHHHHH, dunt dunt duntttttttttttttttttttttt!!!! NOoooooo!!! Should I? I would be a horrible mother? Incompetent maybe? All these things torment me. I dont want her to turn into a thumb sucking, binky attaching child. But I needs some sleep yall and she is up all times of the night.

Ok, so my current comments might be freaking yall out a bit. I just have to get my schedule and plan of action in order with 2 children now. The day seems to fly by! My oldest child, bless her heart, has been more than patient. I know she lies in boredom ALOT, but she is such a big helper. The current one car situation makes it difficult too. Its confusing work, I aint gonna lie. Especially since we dont have the Big Mommas no more to help us out. I cannot stress how important community is during this time.

I am sending a message out to all mommas...when does the tide change? Any advice?