Why Do I Care So Much?

For all of my life, I made decisions and moves based on peoples vision of me and what warmed their hearts. As a soon to be 29 year old woman, I am blessed to say that I have come a long way from that teenager on the voyage of her life... My strength has come from many places and I have many people to thank for the gained wisdom. However, in the same breath, there are things and people that I still fear. Now I dont mean the same fear in which I fear Yahweh, but rather a fear that makes me care SO MUCH about how and why people feel the way they do. My biggest conflict is that I hate to hurt peoples feelings or have people disappointed in me. Why do I allow certain people to make every hair on the back of my neck stand up. Possibly because my love for them is so strong? Or maybe because I feel like I owe them my life? Or maybe simply because I have given up too much of who I am to maintain the relationship? All I know is that I am still learning and that is a lesson in its self. I do know, as of June 26, that I cannot allow people to steal my joy and I have to live life for me at some point. My children are my first priority and to them I devote every minute cell in my body to do the work that it takes to raise them right. Everyone else must go on the back burner (in a loving way). I am learning to please ME now and how not to feel quilty about it. So that means napping for 5 hours if I need to, saying NO if I have to, or simply just being who I am. Its not easy at all because the PEOPLE PLEASER in me lives on. When will I find the courage to let people know whats on my mind and come from a loving place?