Escape Plan

Realistically, how much longer am I going to be able to make it yall? Yeah, I'm talking about work. My mom asked me that last night...my girlfriend and I chatted about it the other day. My original plan was to work until I had the baby, take the given time off, bounce, and then enjoy the summer with my family. However, every day is getting progressively more difficult. The obvious being that I HATE MY JOB! I know yall know that already. I come to work everyday with great spirits, but EVERY SINGLE TIME I hit that glass door - my whole demeanor changes for the worst. I hate how this place changes me...I allow it too for the most part. But once you are in a miserable place its hard to get out. I sit at my desk in a blank, transparent stare, letting the time go by. I simply dont have a care in the world anymore.

At this point my plan is not completely solidified yet, but I am doing all that I can to leave it in Yahwehs hands. I pray about the needed change in my household daily - now I guess Yahweh is teaching me to "wait on him" as scripture says. Father if you can hear me...we need the blessing NOW more than anything. We need peace of mind.

My dream is to quit in May, or at least leave then and have a month to get myself and my home together. But only time will tell.