It aint easy

You never realize how important sleep is until you dont have it. When your body is yearning for it! I had my first real bout with sleep deprevation today and I have to say its not a pretty sight. I have never been one to pull all nighters too well anyway. Without sleep, I am grumpy, impatient, not in the mood, and dont want to repeat myself.

One of my new year aspirations is to be more patient with my children, but I am not sure how far I have gotten with the new edition to the family. Although my energy is high, sleep is always on the menu. Its really hard juggling I aint even gonna lie. Its a new day in parenting from when I was younger. There are no more grandmothers to care for our children while we work/attend school which makes life so much more stressful.

Lately my oldest daughter has been on my mind. I think I am a bit hard on her at times but I am not sure why? She is intelligent, sweet, and a born leader inside. It is really hard to step outside of myself and how I have always done things. I know that I do not want to stiffle her natural greatness, but I have high expectations of her. I love her and want the best for her, but I think I really need to reassess my approach with her. My first baby, my love! The first step to change is to admit your wrong right?