Dark Cloud Revisited

While my motto for 2008 is to "Just Do It" lately I have gotten knocked off the path for a quick minute. That's about how long I'm giving myself...a minute. A minute to cry, sulk, ask "why me", and drown in my sorrows. But then I'm done - or at least I pray I will be. Last year brought a horrible dark cloud over me and I felt like it went away at its end. However, it really just got choked by the rain clouds - clouds that Yahweh brought forth to cleanse my soul. Crying is magnificent for the soul - a huge release. I have done my share of it and it continues daily. When you are in that moment you second guess what you think is your better judgment, wanting to run back to the easier choices in your life. That's where I am. I want to run away from it all and I have NEVER been a quitter. This is very hard, but Yahweh said anything worth having will take struggle. I pray for the day when the dark cloud and rain passes and all I see is sunshine. Ahhhh what a beautiful vision - I literally just "exhaled". If I could have my way I would have my mom and my girls right at my finger tips but I know that this is my walk and I have to reach the finish line.