Back to Basics

Reflecting on when I first started this blog and the reasons behind it, I think I should go back to the foundation. When I began blogging I was pregnant and suffering emotionally through many things. In my growth and search for quiet, I made the changes I needed to get me there. I quit my stressful job so that I could focus on nurturing my growing child. After all, If I am going to a midwife I need to set an example right? I needed to blog as a method of venting - getting it all off my chest just as you would on paper journaling. It was a wonderful release and always brought me back to my center.

Once again, I am in that place of reflecting but this time it is full of positivity and new direction. I love where I am in life. I am working on me, my marriage, my career, and my children. Somewhere in my misery, I began to take that out on the ones close in my life - almost purposely sabotoging what I have. The grass always seems greener and I definitely thought the green was coming my way. The creator was definitely teaching me a lesson and I hope that I learned the correct one.

In my haste to begin nursing school, I attended ANOTHER fellowship orientation and left VERY discouraged. How come all the free money is primarily made available for fresh youth out of highschool with no commitments. HELLO...us adults with full-time jobs and families need it tremendously. The school basically said the accelerated program is not for me - YOU WILL FAIL they said. So, I had to call my girl for reinforcement that has been there and done that. I feel better, but I definitely want to make a wise choice. So I pray on it and pray for the sleepless nights and stress that will come, to put myself in a better place financially. Back to the basics.