Quiet Peace

It is a very bright and early morning. I am dressed and ready to head out the door. But I thought I'd take a few moments to blog and enjoy the absolute best sound on earth...NOTHING. No crying baby, no phone ringing, nobody calling my name, and no TV. Just me and my breath. Oh, and the sound of the A/C, cause yall know its bakin out here.

I am extremely tired from a restless night. My mind is once again racing - many things are heavy on my mind. I feel my mind is cluttered because my house is literally a pig sty and my momma didnt raise no animals. I hate this feeling! Feeling like I can never get it where I want. At this point becoming a minimalist sounds better and better. Just going through the house and tossing all the JUNK!

On top of this, a nervousness in my gutt tells me that there is no way in HELL that I can work full-time, be a mother when I get home full-time, and attend nursing school full-time. Since going back to work, I burnt the hell out! After the hustle getting the girls ready, I usually crash on the couch before 9:30pm trying to wait for my husband to get home from school. There is no way to pass nursing school on that schedule. When would I study? So obviously something has to change, but what that is I dont know yet because everything is just as important. I look forward to the day when I can call my own shots - that day is just around the corner. The day when I can take my sweet time waking up to go to work. The joy of being involved with my children school/activities...when I can have my children near me when even at work...when I can seriously work on my marriage...HELL when I can focus on becoming a better ME.