Miss Ya

Yesterday I got my baby girls ears pierced finally and she surprised everyone. Having done this before with my first child, I already had a plan in motion. I sat in the chair with the baby, pulled out the ninny to prepare for the drama to come. The woman dots the ear with then marker and then aims with the piercing gun...my child doesn't budge or cry ONE OUNCE! We were both astonished - this was a first for us both. She was phenomenal and looks even more kissable now.

I had a job interview this morning. Woke up feeling extremely tired and hesitant about going. I had no excitement. As I turn down the road for the 30's, I am beginning to realize my resistance to just working any job. Im sick of it! Low pay, no passion, no interest in any of it. I have a BA and have to get excited about making under $20/hr in this desert. NO EXCUSE! However, this job seems cool for the most part. I think the interview went well but I dont know that they are able to pay me enough. That will be a problem. When I got home and saw my baby wake up my heart dropped because I want to be able to enjoy that forever. A part of me is angry because I feel like the universe is FORCING me to go to work. Or wait, is it my circumstance. Whatever it is im pissed. I mean who wouldnt love to be a full-time mother with all the perks...pedicures on Wednesday, play dates, book clubs, family vacas, all at your husbands expense? Well Im not a money hungry sista, but I gots to eat to you know. LOL. I miss my babies when I am away and that is why I love spending time with them. They are like my little best friends because i know that they are always down to hang with me.