Universe Hear Me

My spiritual battle is undying these days because I lived a way of life for 7 years that consumed me. I still believe in the Creator, Yahweh, but I often find myself straddling the fence. After living a life for so long its hard to just shut it off. I didnt grow up in this way of life, so i am proof that other things arent so bad, right? But what does Yahweh think? Who am I to pick and chose what feels right to me when he set a law in motion for me to have peace here on earth?

I have decided to live a spiritual life and I pray that Yahweh, the Universe, whatever hears me. No doubt, I have to have spirit guide me. But I have no way of knowing what is the one and only way. So, instead I continue to pray, teach my children righteous behaviors, and allow a little fun to seep through. We only have one life to live and we should live it right?

This year already feels very different. It could be that I am turning 30. Well thats what I pin it on. I feel an awakening sense within me telling me to "WAKE UPPPPP" like on School Daze. reality aint no joke though.