I'm Done

Friday, July 21, 2006 I quit yall!!! I tussled between many things in life since the new addition to my family, but one thing I knew for sure is that I cannot return to the craziness that stressed me out my entire pregnancy! No matter how much I may need the money, my JOB is not worth the agony. Its time for me to pass the torch on to another and stop worrying about how everything will fall into place and just trust in the Creator will make a way because I am making changes for the betterment of my childrens security and joy.

The professional part of me felt guilty for not giving 2 wks notice, but under the circumstances that is just not possible. My baby is only 3 weeks old, my body is still healing, I have no DAMN car to get to work even if I tried. I dont even know how I'm gonna get my child to school in 2 weeks due to our crazy car juggling schedule.

I also feel the gutt reaction to postpone nursing school too : ( I thought I could wait out a semester but that aint the case. My only option is to reapply when Im ready. As much as I wanted to start school and be on my way towards midwifery bliss, I am willing to put my dreams on hold to make sure my baby gets her breastfeeding feast for as long as she needs. She is simply too young PERIOD. So I pray that Yahweh puts somehting in my path or helps me see the plan he has for me. Is this his way of saying I need to be on the apprenticeship path or what? I dont know much of anything right now.