After my Puerto Penasco trip, I am came home feeling more lovely dovey than ever. I wanted to uplift my husband and try that "stix and stones" psychobabble on him. Lately, it only takes one sny comment or look from him to send me swinging from the mountain tops in anger.
Yesterday we discussed the babies growth. I told him she probably weighs a little more than 3lbs at my current 31 weeks gestation. He was like, "its 39 weeks right?". Uhhh no, but your close, 40! The baby is moving more than ever these days and its so exciting because all I can think about is her coming. What will this experience be like delivering at home. I am actually very confident, but there is a little fear or concern in the back of my mind. Can I do this? Who do I REALLY want there? I feel a little obligated to some people right now and I am trying to get over that feeling. Sometimes I think it would be nice to have just me, my hubby, and the midwife there. Maybe that will draw us closer together? But then I also think back to my first labor and how wonderful it was to have so many women present who just knew what to do. I definitely need guidance from Yahweh.
I cannot wait to see my gorgeous baby, her face, her eyes, her skin! I am bouncing out of my seat right now like Tom Cruise on Oprah!! LOL, j/k, but you fill me right.
The Mama is a FastGirl
16 years ago
2 comments:
What a great post! As for all them folks, kick them out! I'm all about that special time with just you and your husband. Is that was great about home birth? No random folks walking in and out!!! Just call me when she's all cleaned up and your ready for some company!
i agree with darkangel. do not feel obligated in any way to people who may impede the feeling of peace you want to have surrounding the birth of your little one. homebirth is magical, uplifting, surreal and incomparable. its no use sharing that awesome energy if you are not feeling it. just let me know when i can come by and swoon over the new little lovely.
i call first on babysitting :)
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