California Dream Land

Yesterday I touched foot, once again, on Arizona ground: not with very much excitement though. The Bay/Sacramento was so wonderful. Of course, I didn't accomplish all of my goals and eateries as the normal cycle of life took its toll. We had some glitches and it rained almost the entire time, but it was relaxing.

Being in Sac with my girls made me realize many things. I miss the company of "real" sistas, having deep conversations about the tangles that we bring into our lives. I miss sitting in massage chair for a pedicure knowing that I won't bleed to death from someone raking away at my feet. LOL. I miss getting my hair braided already assured that they are going to be off the hook. However, I also learned the kind of company and surroundings I don't want to deal with.

The Bay....awwwww....the words are endless. I don't know if there is anything quite like it? I know that that is home: home is where the heart is right! My heart is in Berkeley. I mean it is the best feeling to walk around and see so many beautiful Black people with gorgeous locks, braids, twists, fros, whatever...People not impressed by the material threads of name brands. Everyone has their own style: unique and sassy as ever. I know that I want my children to be exposed to all of the culture and diversity that the Bay has to offer.

I am not that much into the New Year celebration: I mean, I just like to keep it simple you know. Kickin it with my closest people, laughing, dancing, etc. I have been thinking about my aspirations for the new year though because 2005 was full of stress and changes. But, Yahweh blessed me with these experiences to see that I can handle hard times with ease. I am blessed to have a roof over my head, warmth, food, clothing, living life without poverty or war. These are things to be thankful for everyday. My 2006 aspirations are:

1. Find, or design, my ideal career move: this includes a more fulfilling job and begin the nursing program in the Fall.

2. Create a more peaceful and uncluttered space in my life: home, family, heart

3. Have a healthy home birth

4. Reconnect with family and friends in a positive way

I also have a 3-5yr plan that I pray Yahweh blesses me to complete. I plan to complete the accelerated RN program in 16 months. Then I will work on obtaining a job at UCSF as a nurse, prayerfully with the incentives of paying off my student loans and assisting in purchasing a home. Now I realize this is going to take some conniving because my husband is set on staying in this desert. Prayerfully we can find a home somewhere in the outskirts of Berkeley/Oakland. Once securing the career path there, I will work on completing my Masters in Midwifery with Frontier or possibly ICTC if the program is up and running by then. During this time my girls and I will begin our birthing center interdisciplinary plan. We have the vision and it can and will go far once we put our outstanding minds together. Watch out world!