34

Birthdays just seem to come and go as I get older.  As much as I try to be spontaneous with it, it NEVER pans out.  I was blessed to turn 34 two days ago and while a bun in the oven ready to bust and lack of dinero prevented some of my more adventurous plans, I still managed to have a great day.  The goal: focus on me only.  I think I did pretty well!  While I completely take after my mother in not being able to sit down most times, my body TOLD me not to get up until about noon LOL.  I listened this time although guilt lingered in the background.  Baby steps right?  I then had a pedicure with G1, then had Indian food for dinner with all my girls and my mom.  I came home belly full to find my hubby bought me a gorgeous massage chair!!  OK I KNOW for a fact he secretly bought it for himself because he has wanted one for years which I just remembered AND he is tired of hearing me say I bad I need my back, legs, and feet rubbed only to be ignored lol.

However, this post is not about the celebration, but more so about the mind processing I have been going through.  As I continue to read "Sacred Pampering Principles" I constantly ask myself, what will bring me peace and contentment on a daily basis.  Trying to stay a minimalist is the biggest challenge.  At 34 I feel extremely young and the number doesn't seem to fit, but in the back of my mind all I keep saying is "40 is right around the corner" lol.  One thing I know for sure is I REFUSE to just let life pass me by, that just aint me.  I think Yahweh has me on cruise control right now as I mass produce babies lol, but this appears to be our last go round.  I feel like I will take off like a jet setter in due time.  I just want to make each day count and im not sure I can do that in my current place in life.  So I ask for guidance, direction, and purpose while giving thanks for my soulmate, children, and health.