Let Go, Let Yahweh

Why is "let go, let Yahweh" such an easy statment to say, but 1o times harder to actually DO? I mean how does one really do this while still maintaining your option to choose in life? I've have prayed and prayed for answers, but either I dont hear the answer or am ignorning it because Im afraid of the result. Tomorrow some sort of decision will be made because i cant take the constant obsessing over one small part of my life. I have SO much more ponder on and that which brings me so much joy.

Conscious: Ok, child who are you fooling? I mean if you know this why haven't you just made a choice?!

Self: Because damn it, Im scared! What if I make the wrong choice? I hate to be wrong? I like to be in control of it all.

Conscious: If you truely want direction you have to just let life happen and worry about the rest later

Self: tomorrow is the day