On pause...

Wooo sahhhh!! I feel like a quiet gentle storm has been hovering over me for quiet some time now and its throwing off my balance, chi, axe, feng shui, all dat. I'm finding myself making commitments I can't keep, being inconsistent, and down right lazy. For months my focus has been on finding a nursing job in the hospital so I can become more confident in my abilities as a nurse. With one last hope in the basket, I think I will surrender my flag and move on to the next plan if it does not hatch. I mean I can't for the life of me understand WHY Yahweh has not blessed me with a job yet?! Well I have a part time job teaching pregnant teens about birth and pregnancy, so maybe im over looking the blessing?

Whatever the reasons, its all got me on serious pause. I need to find my way back to serenity, Tranquil T. I am still trying to find out what it will take but on the forefront nothing in the desert seems to be standing out. I dont think I have ever actually put myself on hiatus because its not in my character, but that has darn sure changed. Hibernation, hiding, thats me and it feels damn good. So now I am listening, waiting, feeling for the direction so that I can exhale again.