Your worth

Lately I have been feeling all out of wack. Its as if Yahweh is trying to show me the "patient" side of things. Whatever it is its working. I really don't like labels or diagnosis because I think it boils down to one persons interpretation of what's not "normal" or the latest medical update on what used to be done. I will say that what I'm feeling is strong, weird, and concerning to me. I'm not sure when it began, but the quick change of my life could be it. I am now a RN on paper who can't get a job, hell an interview for that matter, with 3 children to provide for. I feel like the one who fell for the society bull so the masses can make a dollar. But that's the emotional side talking. The fact is...its their loss because with every rejection I get via email (and there have been hundreds) their patients are missing out on a compassionate, patient, and loving nurse. I need to stop allowing this to define my worth...let go and let Yahweh! Honestly though that's much easier said than done because reality sometimes sucks ass. My reality right now is suffocating be but I refuse to let it kill me. I will start at the beginning..that is reconnecting with Yahweh through prayer, listening, and. Meditation. This in itself is shaping me into a better nurse..thank you Father. Tomorrow I will write so I can get right.