L&D: Testiment of the wills

Finally, I have processed and evaluated my feelings about clinical day 2 in OB after being frustrated and pissed all in one. I woke up already feeling some kind of way, thinking something was not gonna be quite right. But I was so excited to start the day as I love being around mommas and babies. I think its the best job ever!

In a nut shell, my shadowing nurse was shitty in my opinion - plain and simple! If asked how pissed I was on a scale of 1-10, I would say a 20! I could go on forever complaining, but long story short...she was there to collect a check and sit on her tail all day. As a result, I paid the price and lost 12 hours of learning what I love to do. I told her I want to go into L&D and would appreciate learning everything there is to know. She nodded her head and sat right back down. She sent me to lunch while the mom was 10cm ready to push because the other nurses wanted to eat first, "so we will have her push when they get back" is what she told me. When I returned 30min later they had ruptured her membranes to find thick meconium present. Hmmm, I wonder why?! :O Ughh the pistivity is just rising right now as I think about it. Complaining gets us know where, so instead I choose to reflect on what I have learned about myself and my expectations.

1. I will never be the kind of nurse that pushes interventions for my convenience
2. I will always be attentive to my moms needs
3. I will encourage noninvasive interventions whenever possible
4. I will never forget what it feels like to be a student
5. I will always be a teacher to students because they are the future care takers
6. I CANNOT work in a hospital where normal signs of labor are unforseen: walking the hallway or moans during contractions
7. I need support of the hospital for normal birth when possible
8. Birth is natural never forget that