Day 3 of Block 2

Sleep has become a thing of the past in my current life and I think that its only gonna get worse this block as I have to look forward to 12hr clinical shifts come the end of February. I am not excited at ALL about this. Having to leave my precious lovejoy at a month old to insert IV's, suction traches, and put in NG tubes somehow doesn't seem like an even trade to me. With that said, I have to say today was a good day when all was said and done. Dropping off my baby last minute with a good friend that is a stranger to her broke my heart! It's all I could think about. Then I got to lecture where my teacher made me feel completely inept and dumb as hell. I mean she really expected us to know the answers to her questions as she proceeds to show off her years of expertice by saying, "ummm...these are Block 2 students right?" In my mind I am thinking, "yes WE ARE which is exactly why the whole class is giving you this blank stare - because we haven't learned a damn thing about IV's in Block 1!!" I was thankful that she at least had the curtosy to actually DEMONSTRATE the techniqe in lecture! Can you believe that on my first try, my instructor came over and said, "nice job." :) Yeh I was feeling reassured that I will get it after all. The day ended magnificently when I picked up all my beautiful girls and saw their faces light up when I arrived. Perfect ending to a world wend of a day. At this point, it is one day at a time for me. Shoot maybe even minutes, but I WILL get into the groove somehow - mostly with prayer.