Since my nephew passed away, I have been hesitant about blogging because I didn't want to erase his memory. He has been on my mind every day and today it hit me hard but in a wonderful way. On my way to work I was listening to my girl Ledisi and her song just pierced my soul reminding me that he is not coming back. As much as I know that life must go on, I feel guilty for living life because I don't want to forget about him. In his departure, he has accomplished so much more - its amazing.

My oldest daughter is in the kitchen more than ever before now that she has seen his chef video. Although she doesn't speak of him often, when she does she always talks about wishing he was here to cook with or love on. Life is definitely about change! Through this change I continue to get clarity and understanding about where my path will lead me. Yeah, ok, I'm still confused on some things but I know exactly where I'm going on others - the things that really matter to me most right now.

My plans have shifted lately: my Cali moving plans have been postponed as I will be FINALLY starting nursing school September 2, 2008 at Gateway Community College here in Phoenix!! Yayyyyy!!! My baby Terrell, has inspired me even more to press on and do my thang. mwahhhh!!!