New Beginnings

Today marked a new beginning for me. As I woke up this morning to the dark, I realized I am doing this all alone this time. Although it had been my pattern before, reality cut much deeper. Almost in panic, I start the ball rolling of the hustle and bustle. I had my plan and I executed it perfectly short by about 10min.

As I drove my babies to school, the calming storm settled in my body. I felt kind of horrible just dropping my baby off at a brand new place. But she continued to show me her true independence as she went to embrace one of the little boys of color in her class. Kind of a welcome I guess you could say. I spoke to the teacher real quick who began to tell me "its normal for them to cry the first week". I had to check my facial expression real quick as I thought 1) been here and one this before 2) its not ALL that normal as you say and 3) do you actually have children? and then snuck out the door before she could see me.

Now I am at work with absolutely nothing to do but blog and wait for my desk to be set up. But im not complaining at all. I need a slow introduction since I have been unemployed for almost 4 months. At this point I remain confident but look forward to Friday to come. Until further notice, I'm out. Peace