Cry me a River

I dont know why it feels like I have done this blog again...cry me a river. Oh well its needed. I gotta get this off my chest. I just got through balling for about a good 10 minutes and it felt DAMN good. The initial frustration came from the fact that I now have to cancel my GRE exam because the corrupt system likes making money off of simple problems they could fix. My registered name (maiden) doesnt match my DL (married) and instead of making the simple correction in the computer or simply allowing me to bring my marriage license with DL - these BASTARDS said i have to cancel and ONLY get PARTIAL reimbursement for a $140 EXAM. That has me pissed the hell off. Sorry for my language but I dont have money to be throwing around like that by any means!

After crying, I realized it wasnt just about the test. I am frustrated by the fact that I can't seem to get a freakin break in life for the past year really. On top of that, I KNOW that I am a kind and honest person, yet the demons in this world reap the benefit of all their evil doings. Translation...people just keep pissin on me basically while I give my all in everything I do. I guess nice gals do finish last in the end huh? What is the solution? I have no idea, but running is usually not the best option. I have so much invested here but nothing emotionally to make me stay. I want out and that is my final decree. California here I come!