Updates

I have finally stopped procrastinating and turned in my Nursing application AGAIN! I had been putting it off for much to long for many different reasons, but I had to do it for the future financial benefit of my family and to work towards my career goals. I have also contacted Bay Area hospitals to inquire about their recruitment policies, so that I know how to get jobs there prayerfully. I think the reality of finding out that my sista in the valley will be moving back East without my consent has hardened my soul, LOL. She knows im kidding, but I will miss her greatly. However, it gives me more incentive to move home.

My newest baby girls has had her first tooth appearance! Well it is just on the frontline at this point, but my nipplies sure feel the darn dagger! She is growing wayyyy to fast, but I am glad to have some release. Is that bad? She requires more of my time, attention, and love so it drains me emotionally. I am ready for some adult repreave ya know. My other baby girl, is doing just the same. She is losing teeth, but growing fast. She is the total opposite of me and just like her father when it comes to her appearance. She is a fashionista - into all thats glitter and gold, literally. She wants the long straight hair, so yall know IM freakin out since my husband has nicknamed me Eryka Badu. LOL. I let her do it every once in a while though. She is a shop-a-holic! Just like a child with no money of their own right.

Being in my current situation helps me push myself further because I never want to be here again. Feeling unable to provide the basic necessities for my children: clothes, food, fun. I am not into giving them ALL that I never had because I love that I didnt have everything. I appreciated all the little things like: jumping over our front bushes for fun, making mud pies, making cakes in my easy bake oven, and tea parties in my moms REAL china. Those are irriplacible memories! But I need financial comfort and I will get one day with patience and determination.