Pay It Forward

While I am sure Oprah is the talk of almost town and household because of her huge gester for teaching people to "pay it forward", I realized that this has been my yearning for years. In my own personal quest for spotlight, deep down inside I have just wanted to make a major change in someones life. I am so inspired by the millions of people who make one small step and reward others with miles of walking. The leader in me is chomping at the bit...what is my purpose? How can I make change? I want to be pleasing in Yahweh's eye?

My wanting to go to Ghana is a direct result of this burning desire within me. How magnificent it would be to return to my families homeland, increase knowledge in midwifery practices, see the world, and help prevent maternal death rates all at one time? But my conscious asks me daily...how important is it RIGHT NOW? The mother in me says...put it on hold it will come to fruition ONE DAY. But another part says you only live once and YOU deserve this. The truth is, no matter what, I ALWAYS do what is best for others FIRST because my heart lies with my responsibilities. My childrens well being, safety, and comfort will always bring me joy. Seeing the world is my hearts desire, but at what cost?