Heavy Heart

Conscious, gutt, emotions are no joke. They all tell a magnificent story which is the choice we make in our lives. At present, times are more than hard...they are down right gutta. My mood is all over the place and I can't put my finger on the ONE source of it. Its a melting pot of problems, fears, excitement, and dreams. The things I know in my heart, I hate to admit. Who wants to be the first they say? I can't remember a time when I've been in such lows. All I know is that I feel backed into a corner...I have no choice but to abandon current aspirations for home. Consequently, I see my heart building anger and frustration towards people, but is that right? The second go around aint no joke...its different in every way, so dont try to compare.

Right now, I grasp the Scriptures and pray like never before. Please grant me the serenity to except the things I cannot change. But importantly, please help me regain my strength, independence, and courage.