Knife & Fork

Midwifery doesn't just come to you when you want it.  It "calls" you when you are ready to sample what it will soon offer.  But like any good tasting meal, you must start at the beginning before you reach the final part.  For me, I feel like I've gotten past the appetizer and the first course; but, now Im stuck somewhere in between like when you need to order but can't seem to make up your mind on what you want eat.  Going back and forth with my current place in life, Im beginning to understand.  After all my prayers, I think Yahweh is telling me Im not quite ready yet.  Though my heart is in it, my soul and spirit are not ready to take on the life and death of two others right now.  Im way to smoothered by my own unhappiness.  And like birth, you have to have a clear mind, body, and spirit before you can continuously give to others in such a sacred space.  So I pray, "Yahweh please grant me the ability to understand the path that I should take, give me the courage to make the choices that bring me peace, help me eliminate the fear in my life so I can allow my success to come in instead.  I want the 3rd course and even the desert, but I want it to come when my stomach is ready to except fullness and my pallate ready to taste the full bold flavors it has.

As you walk towards midwifery, or life for that matter, walk with your heart open, your hands free, and your soul unchained.  That is how you live life and not just exist in it.